Losing What I Have. ='(

Haiz. Its been a while since i wrote my blog again. Sorry for my background. Its pretty plain I know. Too lazy to study the HTMLs thing-o-ma-gic. Well.. been really down.. again. Haiz.. my family things again.

Well.. I lost alot of things. The girl i love, some of my buddys, some of my friends, almost lost my happiness, my knowledge of maths[some], my GBA[ gameboy advance =P ], some of my percious things, my best buddy [ Chia Wei Kiat ( anyone knows him plz tell me ='( ], lost control of my money[ tryin to control ] , my 6610 HP. Haiz.. n lots more.

Now.. next year is sec 3, my mom n dad jux said soemthings. Haiz.. they said, next year thier going to sell my computer! ><'' Then.. if they sell, that means the friends in my MSN will be lost too.. Really don't know what to do. Hope they don't mean what they say.

-Wishin all those things i lost, will come back to me.
-------------------Prays Hard---------------------

T.T What i want to b Isn't what 'she' want me to be..

Haix.. Why.. why is my 'she' always don't let me help people??? Why???I want to help people.. I like to help people.. T.TMy ambition is to become a counsellor.. I tried it in Habbo [ an online chatting game ]and it worked quite well.. helping people to solve problems. Guiding them on how o solve it.Haix.. T.T Now.. if 'she' don't let me be a counsellor, and don't let me go for Art, i am gointo ambitious-less.
Pilot : I got wear Specs.
Counsellor : 'she' don't let me help people.
Artist : If sec 3 i don't take art, i cannot do art anymore, and the interrest for art will be gone.

Cannot Forget you

After waiting so long i have waited for your answer. Each time i asked you if you would accept me, each time i asked you if you love me, you answer is always.. " Dont't know" Everything happened on monday. I still rembered, it was monday, when the prefect interviews are on, 'you' smsed me, this message was shown there "Hey, stop wasting your time wooing me, i appreciate what you have done for me. I really appreciate it." I couldn't hold my tears, and it fell. [ 1st rejection ] I did not stop, I pesist.
I started saving money, and planning what to do when birthday arrived. Its was like any normal days, the June holidays just ended. It was monday, again. I met her, and her group of friends. She told me to go there and talk about somethings. She said " Sorry. My mother don't let me have any Boyfriends." This time, i managed to hold bak my tears. I quicjkly rushed home. Each step, each tear drop [ 2nd rejection ]
This time i stop. Then 1 day, her cousin chatted with me. She told me not to give out and she will support me, i thought for a while, and i tried again. But i give up, but i dun't know why.
I regretted.
If you truelly love someone, tell her/him maybe she loves you too.

Making up

So long i have not been writing my blog, as it was exzam period. Wow! Finally Maths exzam is over. My burden and stress is gone now. Left DnT and Art.
Hmmm.. This time, the catagory for Art is quite difficult. Nothing much to draw about. I decided to choose sports out of the catagories. I choose swimming. I don't quite have the confidence to paint the splashes of the water.. and i don't think i have much time for it. maybe during sunday i try to paint 1..
Maybe i might just get high marks.. Haha.. But most probaly not. Really no other catagories to choose.. all don't know what to draw.
=( next year I want to go to art, but mom say go DnT. I know my DnT marks are better then marks and DnT got more opportunities of jobs. But i interested in art ! ! ! How?? T.T

Celebration of MoonCake Fest.[ is it today? ]

'Ring Ring Ring' my handphone rang. "Hello? Rui jie, today swimming cancelled." Wei Lun called me. "Ok. Then we go out shop." I replied. I went back to sleep after that. When it was 9a.m, i woke up. I got ready for breakfast, and watched TV programmes. Smsing other people as well, as the TV programme i had watched before. When it was 12, i quickly get changed and left the house.
Meeting them at a park, I rushed there, as I was late. When I reached the playground, I saw every was playing. Haha... So funny. Wei Jian keep kicking Shu Feng's slippers when it flew out of her feet. We played and played and played, then we went to Yen Chee's house to rest. 1st time went to her house. It was a nice cooling place outside her house, alhtough it is just only 6 storeys. I can feel all the wind blowing towards me, as if I am on a high level HDB flat. We stayed there till 5p.m and went to westmall to walk around. Wei Lun went to my house to take some things, while Wei Jian joined Shu Feng and Yen Chee to Yen Chee's house. After getting the items, we bought sparklers to play. We meeted Zhi Sheng and went to the playground near Yen Chee's House to play with candles and lanterns. It was really funny. When the fire is too big, we used our shoes to SLAM it.. Haha.. Zhi Sheng is really crazy that time. It was 10.25p.m every is packing up to go home. Wei Lun, Zhi Sheng and I sent Shu Feng home then we went home ourself. Its was quite fun and tired that day..

Its been a long time..

Its been a long time. I gave up, but i am still not willing to let you go. Your my 1st love, I wan to share my joy and my sadness with you. I love you ! If god were to give me any chance for me to prove how strong my love for you can be.. I can really prove it. No matter rain or shine.. I want to be by yourside, staying there.. guilding you as you walk through your life.
Love.. no words can explain what it means. Maybe actions? feeling? or the way you act? 1 thing is for sure and it will stay there forever.. Which is, Love works in a mysterious ways. That feeling, if its true.. it will stay wth you forever. If its false.. it just comes and goes..
I have created this post.. as I am feeling quite low.. and still tryin to win that girl's heart, and i want to tell her that.. though this are just words, but its comes from a men.. with his feelings in it..

A new Friend..

So glad to know you. Caslyn, its a nice name. Its special, 1 that i have never heard before. Your a pretty girl, and i beilieve you can find a stuitable guy for you. Wish you good luck. Your a nice friend to know.
You said i was funny, but you yourself is funny too. You sometimes cheered me up when i am done. Though we never met before, but i saw you before.. in your photo.
So, good luck for your final year exzams.. And as a friend.. Hope you find your prince in shining armour soon.. :)

Wei Lian won~~ Kelly rox~!

Wow~! After so long of the superstar thing, it finally come to an end.. Wei Lian, Kelvin won~! Last concert at Expo this saturday.. wish got $80 then can go.. HaizZz.. ok la.. This post quite short.